riding on the metro (sonnet IV)

i haven't smiled this much since god knows when.

oh dearest, how i love to see you break.

i want to snap your fingers one by one 

and swoon at every anguished cry you make.

i almost feel sorry for your veins.

they're turning into dust before your eyes.

oh, if i could, i'd force-feed you your pain,

but oh, how sweetly i'd kiss you goodbye.

you've gone through every single drug you own.

since august, all you think about is death.

but august was a full three months ago.

i've waited long enough for your last breath.

i've hidden all the answers that you seek.

now your forever's only one more week.