alleluia, enigk 4:11

i spent all my life living outside, 

frozen in between a name,

the sun beating down with its final words,

the light on my back, the heat of the blaze,

i spent all last year floating along,

wondering where that current ran,

the one that pushed you to another home,

the heart that pulled you to another man,

i spent all my weekends dying in fashion,

living off lipstick, feeding on attention,

the choking down and the daily seizures,

waiting for the final ignition,

i spent my last days burning slowly,

casting my salted wishes aside,

i will not run down these circles again;

i will follow the will of the rising tide.